Wednesday, December 3, 2008

My Emotional Journey

I started this blog to communicate and document the physical and emotional journey of this experience. Admittedly, I've done a better job communicating the physical aspect of my journey than the emotional side.

Why you ask? I need CONTROLLED JOURNALLING! Not because I'd go on and on but rather I don't know where to begin. This whole experience feels as if I'm living another persons life. Don't be mistaken, I do have my breakdowns. Actually, I decided a long time ago that I would not let my illness define my spirit. Given that, I avoid spending energy on me as a patient or being sick and instead, I focus on getting healthy. Also, I'd rather enjoy life being Jenn, the person that I know the best.

In the recent "Pulmonary Hypertension Association" Fall 2008 Newsletter I discovered an article on journalling. A study was done in 1994 "that showed those who wrote about stressful experiences for 20 minutes a day, three days a week, fared better than those who didn't and better than those who wrote on neutral subjects". In addition, the article provided questions to assist with starting the journalling process. THANK GOD!

With the help of this article and getting over a fear of opening a can of worms, I have begin journaling and will be posting these entries frequently.